Love is a wonderful thing...Try it.

i am who i am, but i cannot define myself
sometimes, i am an actress of happy childhood and remembrance
i can look into that glass dimension, and think i see me
i look into the camera of someone's mind, and i see someone i can hardly recognize
i can feel the fakeness in my smile and laugh
i can feel the pain when my eyes run

i am in a place and i can feel the wind all around me
i can hear the tune about it being a small world
i am jumping up waiting to fall as soon as someone screams ashes
now i am laughing with the laugh of a hundred children
i know this place isnt down the street. but just a dream away

my fingers ache from gripping so tight, but that's just the beginning
i am the center of the show all audience on me
i am full of pure adrenaline, read to fly
i hear the anticipation of the crowd that they have for me
i am ready to begin, ready to speak with my gestures
i am ready to sing with colors
i can tell a story with my expression
i embody an entire emotion
i live in the pulse of a melody
i bend to the will of a song.
i feel the sensation of victory
i know i cant explain why i have twisted
and scared my body for the sake of grace
i shouldnt have to
so i wont
i have given up my identity for that one moment
i am who i am
i can surprise
i have given up who you thought i was.
this is me..

late at night when i am dreaming
i am in a cloudy place
i think it could be heaven
if only i truly believed
i have no problems
a man turns around and hands me a baseball glove, and a hat
he calls me slugger. i know i know who he is, but in this place
i know no one. nothing
i only know me

i am awake. reality is back
i dont know real reality
i have thoughts and visions of what it may be
it HAS to be different then what i have lived through
i am confined from bad things in the world
to the bad things in my own home.
i want to be me here.

i can be me.
through what i draw.
what i sing
what i draw.
i can show you if you look
if you listen
if you read
they are who i am
but i still cannot explain

i miss the things in life.
i used to do.

:::but no fear:::




i am happier then ever

i am back.
new and improved.











...:: i threw away your memories::...
because i dont want to remember you.